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Psalm 78:35

"Then they remembered that God was their rock, And the Most High God their Redeemer."


I was speaking with my sweet friend about this tonight. We were two girls on opposite sides of the world and in that moment talking about the same wonderful, brilliant friend and Lord, Jesus. He is the rock of our hearts and souls and whole beings. He is all we know and everything we are and ever hope to be, is because of Him.

It's interesting when you get to a point in your life when you've had the opportunity to do some things that you thought you really wanted to do with your life. Cool things that you feel blessed to have experienced. You get the chance to take that "dream" job where you may be really using your gifts and your strengths, or you get to know the people you thought would maybe make you feel somewhat more complete and wanted. You take the job, meet the right people, or fulfill one (or if you're lucky some) of your life long goals. Then you kind of realize that the thing you thought you really wanted to do, the places you thought you really wanted to be, and the person you thought you really wanted to become, isn't (after all) what you wanted. You catch yourself wanting something more or something else. You wake up one day and realize that it's just earthly stuff, these are all just human beings, you thought you would feel different, but it's still just me. You begin to think that you don't really know anything.

So me and my Jaynie came to the conclusion that we don't know much, (anything, really), we thought we wanted some stuff and maybe we really don't want it after all, we aren't ever going to be models, and we know that God is the only thing that we know to be true and real. He is the only thing that we want, and if God is all that we get, no frills and thrills, then He will be enough. Even though "the fairy floss and rainbows are fun" (Jaynie), we don't care anymore. We just want Him.
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