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Psalm 143: 8 (new living translation)

"Let me hear of your unfailing love each morning, for I am trusting you. Show me where to walk, for I give myself to you."

He is with you.
There is nothing more devastating than feeling forgotten by someone who claims to love you. Feeling like they have felt something for you in the past, and now feel something differently. And there is absolutely nothing more painful than the feeling of trusting God for something, trusting Him to come through, trusting Him to be there with you, really relying on Him for His daily grace and presence and believing Him for the results you (or someone you love) need in a specific situation - and then He doesn't, and you are bitterly disappointed. Things don't change, you and your heart feel like you're still barely holding on to make it through the day, and life doesn't seem to be everything you thought it would be by now. The only source of comfort in times like that (if you want to hear it) is the truth: God, our Abba Father, is watching you, and watching me. He doesn't forget. He is closer than a best friend and more loyal than a mother or father.

Despite the fact that for years we have been trying to argue and debate God's love for us into our finite minds, I don't think we can ever sum up in human words and capacity the love of God for us, and what it really means to walk with Him and have a daily, minute by minute relationship with Him. Think about your lover, your parent, your best friend and then think of Him in that role. After looking around the state of the world and discovering that our only hope is Jesus, I am convinced that the essence of our faith shouldn't be too complicated. Yes, life and heartaches and disappointment (especially with God) makes things (and Him) complicated and make even less sense. But the bottom line is that God is with us. He is near to you and your heart, He is in your midst. He is in the room with you. He is in love with you with a love that you don't understand.

And it's about trusting that He is with us. Really with us. Watching our every move, taking pride in the day to day of our lives. Sharing in our days joys and losses. Watching as we go about our business, watching us trust and pray. He is not a magician in the sky who gives us everything we want. But He IS someone to trust and lean on and take risks for. He can be trusted and He can be relied upon. Psalm 37:25, "Once I was young, and now I am old. Yet I have never seen the godly forsaken and His children begging for bread." The promises of God are to be prayed into your life with serious dedication and heart. He is good for his promises. Give yourself entirely, don't hold back anymore. He is with you.
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